Pause For Beta’ing

So no word counts today, I’m actually taking a day off of writing because I have sent my latest chapters for both my fics FSOBE and Chain Reaction off to the betas.  And now, I have all these doubts about what I left out and what I should have included in that chapter.

It happens to me all the time, and honestly in the end, once it goes off to the beta I honestly don’t change things unless it’s really necessary. So yeah, the struggle is diffidently real.

I’m getting about five chapters into the end of the FSOBE and that process of starting to wrap up this story is so nerve wracking because I just want everything line up and well and end on a great note.  I think a lot of writers often worry about the beginning, but writing the end is just as nerve wracking. This will be the first story that I have ever finished. So I have that added pressure on top of me.

However, I am just bursting with ideas for Chain Reaction. I have so many ways I want to characterize Aster and all the characters but with this story I am actually trying to establish a voice for character for the first time, then making sure that this doesn’t turn into an issues fic, and then watching diligently for Aster not turning into a mary sue  was hard work.

I don’t want to overpower her, I want her to work for every reward she gets (and she will) and I’m going to whumped her and I already have. started that. I wanted her to have PTSD but I don’t think I worked more into that.

So yeah, I have a lot on my plate writing wise.  However, this process writing FSOBE and writing Chain Reaction has taught me so much about myself and my ability as a writing and my writing process.

Anway, I’m done bitching for today.  Before I go, I want to thank all of my new followers. Thank you so much for coming on the crazy train with me.