Getting Used To Disappointment

Total Word Count: 1010 words.

Today the words came at a slow crawl to 1010 words. I was distracted and more than a little bit discouraged at the lack of interest in my trans harry potter fic. It seemed like I got hits but I didn’t get enough interest to even get a kudos. It really makes me sad. Especially, since all that work I went through to get this thing off the ground came to nothing.

Although the problem might be because it was a story I rebooted three times, but still, I have zero kudos on Ao3 and that fact is eating at me. I had to push past my disappointment, give myself a prep talk and carry on.  The part of being a writer comes with the disappointment when people don’t love yor work as you do.

And yeah, I admit right here it might be legimate probelms with my story, I will never be that type of writer to think everything I create is perfect and without flaws. I’m quite the opposite in fact. I’m hypercritical of every word I write, and that is why the mess of a first draft always bothers me. I want everything perfect now, but the logical part of my brain keeps telling me that works are polished over time. *le sigh*.

I’m also coming agains the wall of being afraid to take what I learned in my description book and applying to my current projects. I don’t know, maybe it is my fear of something new.

Anyway, that’s enough for now. I’m off to eat a late dinner. I will be back tommorw.  Ta Ta For Now!

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